I have never really begun this blog due to being a big chicken, scared to bare it all scared to let my feelings out to be read by who ever wants to.  This I can now see and realise, that I can not live in fear not in any aspect of my life.  I push myself in many ways, mainly it has been physically but now I am having to push mentally to break down the walls that my fears create for me.  I find it easier to cope with physical fear than this mental block I keep giving myself.  Well any way i am going to put some stuff out there for all to read.  Since I last wrote on this i was heading to the caribbean my mind fixed on getting my yachting career back on track.  I caught a flight over as I had literally missed the…